The Potential For Genius

“[The man of] talent is like the marksman who hits a target that others cannot reach; [the] genius is like the marksman who hits a target…[the] others cannot even see.” –- Schopenhauer.

In the musical version of J.M. Barrie’s Peter Pan, when Peter tells Wendy she’s “just too grown-up” to return to Neverland, what he really means is that she’s lost her artist’s soul.  In our society, most of us lose this soul, while as children we have it naturally and are encouraged to have it.  Peter Pan is the Eternal Artist, the God and Goddess, the genius.  He flies high above the world, defying even gravity.  He teaches others to fly, but they have to believe in magic, in fairies – in themselves – in order to do so. Continue reading “The Potential For Genius”

Actor Turned Psychic

“Only your own deep need to salvage something from the void – to act or to write or to create – can keep you from the commonplace and from dying out… Be careful what happens to your talent.” – Stella Adler.

Let’s start out with a juicy magical story.  During my woebegone days as an actor, I tried to do a lot of magic to help my obstructed career.  But short of black magic, there’s only so much you can do if something’s not meant to be.  In Rosemary’s Baby, John Cassavetes gets the part because the other actor goes blind from black magic.  Well, my magic doesn’t work that way.  And while we’re on the subject, those were satanists in Rosemary’s Baby – NOT witches.  Hollywood has been particularly damaging to the true witch’s reputation.

But here’s the best magic I ever succeeded in doing for my acting career.  Having worked with the planets and gods that represent them, I’d had very good luck with Jupiter, who rules the Wheel of Fortune card in the Tarot.  So I planned a rite of Jupiter to try to create some good fortune in my career.  But after an elaborate ritual, nothing seemed to be happening.  Now much of my magic is with seven-day candles; I’m quite good at this, if I do say so myself – but it was the last day of the candle – and nothing.  Was it because my neighbors had been so noisy during the ritual?  That must have been it.

That day I was doing extra work on the film, Quiz Show.  I remember seeing my dwindling purple candle as I left my apartment at the ungoddessly hour of 5 A.M.  “Come on candle, do something!” I cried.  Well, my day turned out to be every extra’s dream:  I happened to be standing in the right place at the right time and got upgraded to Day Player.  Robert Redford, the director, approved my saying four lines.  Guess what the Kabbalistic number of Jupiter is:  four!  I returned home after signing the contract and (the only time this has happened) the glass of my finished candle had shattered!  It turns out my scene was cut from the movie, but I still get residual checks to this day.

And that, folks, is the best thing I can tell you about my former acting career.

Oh, extra work:  I remember it well.  At first it was exciting to hang out on film sets with the stars; but after a few months of making your living this way – and realizing that you’re not exactly doing what Stella Adler trained you to do – the tedium sets in big time.  I’ve always been good at making the best of situations and found a wonderful way to deal with all those hours of waiting:  to practice Tarot reading with my newly acquired Tarot deck.

Now learning cards is somewhat like learning lines:  you can’t really act until you’ve put down the script.  Similarly, you can’t really read the Tarot until you’ve weaned yourself off the instruction book.  I noted the parallel and one day bravely left my instruction book at home.

The results were astronomical:  I achieved the popularity I had always dreamed of in high school!  Everyone wanted a reading and no one wanted to go to the set.  I was able to unite factions of competitive and jealous actors, everyone truly interested in the intricacies of each other’s lives.  (Those were the days I used to allow people to listen in; today my readings are strictly private.)   I discovered that reading cards became a good way to get out of myself, the self-involved actor; and perhaps for the first time, I began being interested in other people.

Having studied magic for several years, I soon realized that the Tarot encompassed the same forces (of earth, air, fire and water, for instance); but instead of thrusting these forces into action, as one does in magic, I simply interpreted their influence on people’s circumstances in life.  My accuracy was astonishing, even to me.  And almost everyone agreed that I should do it professionally. What?  And give up my childhood dream of the stage and screen and bright lights?  Never!

One day I was called to the set in the middle of a reading.  I sat at a bar with a young woman who asked if I brought my cards with me.  When I said no, she handed me her watch and said, “Here – see what you get from this.”  What follows is my first experience doing psychometry:

I held the watch to my head and immediately got an image, but said, “I can’t say this.  It’s too embarrassing.”  She said, “It’s OK – just say it.”  I replied, “I really don’t think I can.”  “C’mon,” she persisted, “we’re all actors.”  I said, “All right, you have a vaginal yeast infection, don’t you?”  “Oh my God,” she exclaimed, “I can’t believe it!  I do!  What else do you get?”  I continued concentrating and said, “You’re very uptight about having sex with your boyfriend this weekend.”  She said, “How true!  But not because of the yeast infection.  Go on.”  I said, “The reason is because he’s impotent.”  And I was right.

I began to realize that I was truly becoming psychic – but where did this power come from?

The “wisewoman” mentioned in my article “Adventures On The Magical Path” got me started on a daily regimen of exercises for my balance and protection.  She warned me that the forces of magic could be very powerful and that I better proceed safely.  I had read these exercises in Modern Magick by Donald Michael Kraig.  They included the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, the Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram, and the Middle Pillar Ritual.  I began doing these twice daily.  They filled me with light and strength.

Stella used to tell us that Stanislavsky, the great Russian director, worked on his voice until the day he died.  But as an actor, I hated my vocal exercises; as a psychic and magician, though, I love my magical exercises and will probably do them until the day I die. (Or maybe even after I die!)  And I believe that the discipline of these exercises inadvertently made me psychic.

Here’s how I found out.  I was spending a weekend in Massachusetts at the home of an older Jewish man who was dying.  One morning I asked if he’d like to witness my Kabbalistic exercises; I thought he might enjoy them because of their Hebrew content.  He said he would love to, and his huge dog joined us.

My eyes were mostly closed during the fifteen minutes of the exercises, but I could hear the dog moving around quite a bit – and when I finished and opened my eyes, this enormous dog was at my feet, lying on her back with her legs – and tongue – in the air, panting in total ecstasy!  The old man said she had never done this before and that her head had whirled around and around, watching all the swirling lights surrounding me.  He then described the three colors of the light:  white, blue, and gold, which was absolutely correct!

This proved to me for the first time the validity of a very important magical concept:  first you begin by imagining a blue pentagram, or a golden hexagram, or a white beam of light.  But as you advance in magic, they are no longer imagined; they are truly there.  And this man and dog could see them!  (Obviously, the man was spiritually advanced; he told me later about his two near-death experiences.)

That was a profound day for me magically.  I learned that the light I was bringing down into my head and body was truly entering me.  And it was this light from my higher self, my Higher Genius – and beyond – that was making me psychic.

There are so many stories from those early days but a few stand out in my mind.  My favorite is when I held a woman’s ring and got a cat named “Boots” and “Jesse, the Cool Cat.”  This sounded so silly, I thought I was making it up.  But 3 months later, her California friend moved in with a Jesse and told her, “Jesse named our new cat Boots and now he’s so pleased, he’s going around calling himself Jesse, the Cool Cat!”  The woman almost dropped dead on the spot but survived to tell me the tale.

Once I was flying to London on my first non-smoking flight.  (When asked if an actor should give up smoking, Stella once said, “Dahling, if you don’t smoke, you’ll drink!”) So due to my lack of puffing, I accidentally overdid it in the booze department and got totally smashed.  The man sitting next to me struck up a conversation and asked what I did for a living.  When I told him I was becoming a psychic, he confessed that he didn’t believe in such things.  So I offered him a free demonstration:

I held his ring and got a girl named Maria with blond hair.  He said this was his daughter and that she was sitting several rows ahead.  Well that was fine, so I tried his other ring and got a Friedrich who was very sad.  He told me that Friedrich was his son who had a very unhappy situation occurring in his life – and that he was sitting right next to Maria.  This time I was the one who said, “I don’t believe you!”  So he fetched his attaché case from above and showed me two passports with the names “Maria” and “Friedrich.”  Another skeptic turned believer, with me under the influence, no less.

There’s nothing wrong with being a skeptic:  show me a hard-boiled skeptic and I’ll show you a good egg whose shell can come off.  Like the time a young man handed me his bracelet with that defiant look in his eyes.  I held the bracelet to my head and said, “I’m getting a Frank…Mesa.”  He said his best friend was Frank.  I said, “So what?  Frank could be anyone.”  He countered, “Well, I was thinking, if you don’t say my best friend Frank, I’m not going to believe any of this.”  But what about Mesa?  The next day he called to say he spoke to Frank, who revealed his mother’s maiden name:  Mesa!

So skeptics, I’ve got one thing to say to you:  BEWARE.

Years ago, while working as a chauffeur, Mike Nichols told me that good actors were a dime a dozen.  I think I was a good actor but I was never the right type:  I was either too young or too old, too Jewish or too not-Jewish-enough, too good-looking or too not-good-looking-enough.  After twenty years, I had had it.  I don’t think I’d ever have “given up,” though, if I hadn’t found something else that I loved.  And good psychics are not a dime a dozen!

On the set of “Guiding Light” I did some psychometry for one of my fellow extras.  I got a Natasha with long, black hair.  He said, “Thanks for reminding me – I’ve been meaning to call her all day.”  I jokingly added, “You call her Boris, don’t you?  Just kidding.”  He said, “No – I really do call her Boris!  You’re good – you should write a psychic column somewhere.”  I responded with, “Naaah.”  But a few weeks later he was selling advertising for a magazine called VICE – and they called to offer me a column.

So I became a psychic columnist.  And I soon got the idea to visit one of the restaurants advertised in the magazine to see if they’d like to have a Tarot reader on weekends.  The manager was an English bloke who loved the idea.  So during the week I continued my battle for acting, but on weekends I started making my first money as a psychic.

I did quite well.  And the more disgusted I became with Show Business, the more encouraged I became with my psychic work.  I knew if I could find a few restaurants and work four to five nights a week, I could make a decent living at it. 

Which is just what I did.  A red Mars candle led me to my best gig ever at Caffé Sha Sha in the West Village; and VICE Magazine led to the very popular NEXT Magazine, which brought lots of people into Caffé Sha Sha to see me.  I was on my way.

What a crazy life it is being a psychic!  People expect perfection; they think I should know everything.  And I don’t – I only know what comes to me through the cards and my psychic messages.  I don’t claim to be 100% accurate, but I do try to be 100% honest.  And I think my clients appreciate that; it’s so rewarding to be able to help them in a deep way.

But God, the flack I have to take sometimes!  I’ve heard every psychic joke in the book and some can be downright nasty.  Let’s face it:  I’m not in a very respected profession.  What’s difficult for me is that I get super-sensitive when doing a reading – that’s part of my talent for it.  So sometimes the “vulgarity of the public” really gets to me.  I have to remember to keep my sense of humor.

It’s thrilling, though, to have so many wonderful clients.  I never thought it could happen.  Much to my own amazement, they return again and again, telling me how my predictions came true.  I always maintain, however, that the future is never as important as one’s understanding of the present (from which we create our future).

Every once in a while, I get a real stinker.  One of my worst experiences early on was a woman who wanted to know when her former psychiatrist was going to call, because she just knew he was in love with her and seven other psychics said he would call in February.  Well, February was almost over and the cards were terrible.  So I said, “I’m sorry, I don’t think he’s going to call you.”  Then she stood up and announced in a very loud voice:  “I DON’T LIKE THIS READING!”

One of my most uncomfortable experiences was with a woman who lived in my building.  The session started out great:  when I got the name Fantine from her ring (the character from Les Misérables), she said that her boyfriend left her for the woman who was playing the role on Broadway.  I thought the rest of the session was OK, but for a whole year she gave me the gloomiest looks in the elevator.  Finally I asked her about it and she said that nothing I predicted came true!  I felt awful because I’m such a perfectionist.  So I offered her a free reading but she never showed up.

Maybe I was off, but I’ve learned from experience that people don’t always take my advice; I’m a psychic counselor – so if someone doesn’t choose the job I highly recommend, and stays with the one he hates instead,  then he won’t have the fabulous summer I predicted – which is exactly what happened to one of my clients.

But thank God, the exasperating experiences are relatively few.  My work is constantly amazing; and no one is more amazed than I.

There’s a beautiful play I saw years ago about a man so in love with his childhood sweetheart that he follows her all over the world – only to discover one day that he’s much better suited to her older sister, whom he marries in the end.  It haunted me at the time, wondering if I was chasing after the wrong dream.  But over the years, one dream simply vaporized into another dream.  And I cry as I write this, for I realize that it’s all really the same dream:  it’s about finding the life that you love.

Kyler James is the author of the novel THE SECRET OF THE RED TRUCK, which made Dennis Cooper’s favorites list for 2014 and sold out repeatedly in New York City bookstores. A former actor and NYU graduate (studied with Stella Adler), Kyler started reading Tarot cards on film sets and has been a professional psychic counselor for thirty years, amazing people (and animals) with his talents. He has written columns and short stories for a number of magazines and is known for being “The Wizard of Washington Square” when the weather succumbs to his will. Kyler’s newly published novel, MERCURY’S CHOICE, about a genius of a painter, is currently available on Amazon. You can visit him at

Adventures On The Magical Path

“Sometimes there’s God so quickly!” – Tennessee Williams.

What a magical neighborhood I grew up in! There was magic everywhere – but don’t all children create magic out of their surroundings? The fireflies at dusk were secretly fairies; the nuns in white were secretly ghosts; and the woods behind us were definitely enchanted. And all the while the large Star of David from the temple down the street shined on our houses as if to say, “There is power here – there is something bigger than who you are – and you can reach it if you come to me.”

My best friend Hank and I ruled the world – or at least our block. I created – and enforced – all of our games. We wore signs on our chests proclaiming who we were: Hank was “Nature”. . . and I was “God.” (The Goddess and God of my future years.) Together we reigned over Clarendon Court, or at least I did, always under the glorified presence of the Star of David, what I now call the Six-Rayed Star.

“Mix-up” was my favorite game. One of us would blindfold the other, spin him around and lead him to familiar parts of our yards. We’d be quizzed on where we actually were. And it was the most astounding feeling to remove the blindfold and to realize that we were standing on our own front steps. Such alternative perceptions of reality, like Steppenwolf’s Magic Theatre! Not until my adult initiations did I experience such a thrill, where the mystery of one world merges into the mystery of the next.

Hank and his brother were eventually forbidden to play with me. Their father wanted his boys to play “normal” games like “Cowboys and Indians” and “Cops and Robbers.” Guns were required, not imaginations. And they grew up to be normal, healthy Americans – a lawyer and doctor, respectively. (And respectably.) I was Peter Pan and would never grow up. So I retreated into my fantasy world and gradually became. . . religious!

My father promised my sister and me that if we didn’t like Sunday School we wouldn’t have to go back after the first day. What a fib, Dad! We were chained to Sunday School – and later Hebrew School, which I hated then, but am so grateful for now.

The first time they told us the story of Moses, I was awe inspired. I could think of nothing else all day. What they didn’t tell us was that Moses was a master magician, trained in Egypt. All the miracles in the Bible were performed by magicians – true magicians as opposed to illusionists. And it was so much easier to wield magic in the days before technology, the days when everyone believed in it, as children do now.

That night I prayed at my bedroom window. I remember the stars in the western sky as I asked God to please not send any burning bushes until I was ready. For I knew that one day I would be ready, ready for something as high as those stars, as great as our shining Six-Rayed Star, as golden as that day of the Sun, that Sunday, when I first learned about Moses and knew that I too was destined to hear from God.

Thirty years later I’m in my Magic Temple. It’s the night and hour of Venus: Friday night, 9:22 PM. (I’ve calculated this precisely according to the sunset and sunrise from The New York Times.) I have cast the Magic Circle and I am one with The Eternal. With my staff, I call forth one of the Great and Powerful names of God – the same name that Charlton Heston uses in The Ten Commandments, only in Hebrew. I’m invoking this special name seven times (the Kabbalistic number of Venus) and suddenly my caldron of incense bursts into flames!

At first I am terrified: this has never happened before. What if my apartment burns down at the hands of a crazy magician? But as the flames continue to flare, I realize I am in the presence of that which I have invoked – and I begin to trust it, knowing I have achieved a new height.

That was a significant night on my Magical Path. The flaming caldron has reoccurred only once since, while invoking the Goddess of the Full Moon, also at the exact moments of invocation. These were important guideposts for me in our skeptical world of technology that wants us all to be mechanized, that insists magic cannot exist, that venerates organized religion, yet denigrates as “crazy” any private contact with what these religions call “God.”

In this article it will be my long-awaited pleasure to unveil some of the mysteries of magic for you, so that you too can become aware of its power and, if you so desire, incorporate it into your life. Like the Rainbow Bridge from Wagner’s Ring, let this be the bridge that links you to Valhalla, the castle of the Gods. For I have ventured there myself and have witnessed its euphoria.  

Now: to some of the nitty-gritties of magic. Let’s get real. Does magic really work? Does it really exist? I assure you it does – but it takes more than snapping your fingers; it’s no panacea for pain or misery. It takes a lot of hard work and discipline, discipline: study, practice and intelligence.

Magic is the greatest thing I know. I’m so lucky to be able to tell you about it. I can’t think of a subject that’s more misconstrued, more confused with superstition, more divinely idiotic and insane and wonderful. Because it has to do with the power of the Human Mind. It’s all the mind. As Hesse said, “We create gods and struggle with them, and they bless us.” The power of magic – or of the gods – is in each one of us to utilize fully.

Aleister Crowley, the magical genius of the twentieth century, has given the best definition of magic (he spelled it “magick” to differentiate the real thing from magic tricks): “The Science and Art of causing Change to occur in conformity with Will.” Simple, right? It’s your will to change your hair color, so you dye it bright red – that’s magic, or a form of magic.

It was first explained to me this way: magic is like a hammer – you can use it to build a house or to clobber someone over the head – it’s still the same hammer; the principles are the same. Strictly speaking, therefore, there are no subdivisions. But for the purpose of our exploration, let us first divide so that later we can be fruitful and multiply.

WHITE MAGIC. This is magic in its simplest essence. It’s nearly the equivalent of prayer and meditation. Candles, incense, chanting and trance, rituals in their most heartfelt enactment, the exaltation of one’s purest ideals, this form of magic is the most accessible, the easiest to do and the least dangerous. Gods and Goddesses are contacted and glorified. The “change” that occurs “in conformity with Will” is the self-transformation that comes from the joy and beauty of the rituals.

BLACK MAGIC. Doesn’t the phrase have an alluring ring to it? Watch out. Maleficent was always my favorite Disney witch, but this was one hell of an unhappy lady! “For the first time in sixteen years I shall sleep well tonight,” she intones. Really…doesn’t she have anything better to do with her time? Very simply, Black Magic has the intention of harming, avenging, or manipulating someone against their will, including love spells directed at a specific person. Stay away from it or you’ll regret it.

GREY MAGIC. Now we get to an area that’s a little more complex. Depending on how you define it, Grey Magic is actually doing “good” for yourself or others: healings, success spells, love spells, as long as they’re for general love; but the tricky part is that Grey Magic can turn into either White or Black. It’s a very good idea to do a divination first, like Tarot or I Ching (see chapter 3), to determine which way the magic will go. For instance, a money spell for yourself is fine if it naturally increases your abundance through your own work; but if your aunt dies the next day and leaves you $10,000, you have probably harmed your aunt and will have to pay a big price for that. So proceed, but proceed with caution – and make sure you know what you’re doing.

MUNDANE MAGIC. This is the kind of magic that we all do, simply the doing of work or tasks on the earth-plane. But let’s not underestimate its importance. For me, the magic of writing this chapter was first to take a train out-of-town, then to find an article about writing by Joyce Carol Oates on my train seat; then in the throes of inspiration, to begin writing furiously and nearly miss my stop; then confined to my hotel room during a thunderstorm, to finish the first section; and finally to type it, correct it and computerize it. Now that’s magic.

LOW MAGIC. There is no value judgement here; “low” refers to the lowlands, the countryside, where the pagans, witches and country folk did magic. Mostly uneducated, these people used the herbs and ingredients that were available; and incorporating aspects of White and Grey Magic, performed the rites that were natural and spontaneous to their feelings. The eight great festivals of the year, or Witch’s Sabbats, were celebrated with magnificent beauty and merriment. Today, those of us who are magically inclined still honor the sacred “Wheel of the Year,” and praise its particular gods, who are really parts of ourselves.

HIGH MAGIC. You’ll notice I saved this one for last. That’s because High Magic is the central focus here. It’s called “high,” not because it gives you such a palpable high, but because it was practiced by the educated magicians, wizards, Kabbalists and alchemists in the high, walled cities. Also called the Great Work, the basic goal of High Magic is to exalt oneself to one’s highest height, whether you call that God, Goddess, Higher Self, Higher Genius or Holy Guardian Angel. To put it simply, it’s the way of striving for – and possibly attaining – genius. There’s certainly value in knowing success with the lower forms of magic; but it’s the uplift of the spirit, the higher magic, that’s the launching of the soul to its star.

This article will not teach you how to do magic; that’s not my mission. Perhaps it will inspire you to pursue it on your own, if you’re interested. But I hope that the ideas of magic, especially High Magic, will encourage you to find your True Will, your purpose in life, your greatest self-vision.

Let’s talk a little about how I began all this kooky stuff. You might like to know – for a lot of people ask me – and then you can see for yourself if you want to pursue the Magical Path.

When I first visited the magical shops in New York City, the intoxicating bouquet of the incense and oils drove me wild. I had smelled these smells somewhere before. I was so attracted to them that I thought I’d better get away fast, otherwise I might get involved in something really ridiculous. (I had gone through a dangerous cult experience some years earlier.) So I stayed away for at least a year.

But then a friend gave me a copy of Marion Weinstein’s Positive Magic, which was so sensible it changed my life forever. I gradually began going to the free “Pagan Way” classes held at Enchantments in the East Village. There, the basics of casting the Magic Circle were taught. But I chose to proceed very slowly and carefully; I never again wanted to be trapped in a situation from which I couldn’t escape. I took my time but came to realize that magic and Wicca (White Witchcraft, the Craft of the Wise) were really geared to the individual, with no group pressure at all. This was good.

I began experimenting with magic. Oh, the fun of it in those early days! Anything was possible. And the enthusiasm of my “beginner’s luck” gave me quite a few magical successes right at the start.

My sister was having a difficult time. Her business was slow and she needed to rent her offices; she’d had an ad in The New York Times since May and it was now November, with no response. I asked permission to “spiritually help her out” and she agreed.

So I planned a ritual with the proper incense, oil and candle color – all the essential ingredients – and set to work to help my sister. Trying to wait patiently for a few days, I finally called her. You will not believe what she told me: after six months of no response to her ad, the very day after my ritual she rented all her offices and took on three new clients. Wow! I could do magic!

I was so excited that I ran over to Enchantments to tell them about my first major success. I hadn’t yet learned – and it’s still difficult for me – the importance of Remaining Silent. I bragged about my impressive triumph, only to discover soon after that the new tenant cancelled her check and the new clients cancelled their appointments. My babbling broke the spell. “So much for your spiritual practice,” my sister jeered.

Yes, that was quite a lesson. It took me years to learn how to keep my mouth shut, because I’d get so enthusiastic about the amazement of magic that I wanted to tell everybody. (Which is exactly what I’m doing here!) But seriously, I’ve learned to cool it a little.

After three years of studying magic and the Craft, as it’s called, I decided it was time for initiation. Having investigated the world’s religions, I had finally found mine and truly loved it. Not knowing a High Priestess I trusted at the time, I decided that self-initiation on the Fall Equinox was the way to go. So with the perfect balance of day and night, light and dark, I took vows to myself and the Gods – and became “Kyler, Priest of Pan, Witch of the Goddess and Magical Man.”

The next five years were spent with considerable ups and downs, the misadventures of magical life in New York. On Monday nights I met with a coven for a while and studied privately with an older wisewoman who taught me it’s really the mind that does magic, all incense, candles and oils merely being aids to inspire the mind. But eventually I realized I had to do things my own way and create my own system. Having pretty much absorbed the knowledge of the Craft, I turned to the Kabbalah, the magical core of Judaism, an infinite study. Tired of people’s reactions to the word “witch,” I began calling myself a magician, which was becoming more and more true. Being a stickler for perfection, as magicians often are, I chose to work alone, combining elements of Kabbalah and Craft, High and Low Magic. When asked what my magical tradition was, I’d say, “The Kyler Tradition.”

By now the substantial results of my magic could no longer be attributed to coincidence. After a healing, a friend with AIDS was able to ride his bike for the first time in a year; after a money spell, $1800 mysteriously appeared in my bank account; after a love ritual, I enjoyed my first relationship in quite a while. But these effects were temporary: my friend got sick again, the $1800 disappeared, and of course the relationship ended. What was lasting, though, was the daily work on myself, the higher magic that was making me strong.

I began meeting other magicians at the Gnostic Masses given by the Ordo Templi Orientis (OTO), Crowley’s magical fraternity. Crowley has always been for me the most brilliant writer on magic; and his Gnostic Mass the most sublime worship service I’ve ever known. After my cult experience, I’d been very wary of groups, but I really liked the people at OTO, and they seemed to be true to their one law: “Do what thou wilt.” Unlike the dogmatic cult, this was a philosophy for the individual, called Thelema, which means “Will” in Greek. Some of my heroes were considered saints in the Gnostic Mass: Nietzsche, Wagner – even Moses. So I decided to take the preliminary initiation of Minerval (Zero Degree), which was pretty exciting.

Meanwhile, my psychic counseling practice was growing; and as a new Minerval, I acquired a column in a popular magazine, which catapulted my career.

When I’d been a Minerval for three years, a total of eleven on the Magical Path, I felt ready for further initiation. After a painstaking decision process, I decided against advancing in the OTO, not because I didn’t love it, but because of my leftover hesitancy to join any group. Instead, my dear friend and High Priestess, Rozelisa, agreed to initiate me privately into the Gardnerian Tradition of Wicca.

So I finally got my First Degree after eleven years. First Degree in any system is considered a rebirth and you can cast an astrological chart for the special occasion. Although I’m pledged to secrecy, I’m able to say that it was like five years of therapy in one night. I was amazed at how healthy it was; therapists would recommend it, I’m sure, if they knew what it entailed. But they’d have to become witches to find out!

So I now have three initiations and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. They’ve given me my life, my work, and most importantly, my love for myself. When I told the head of the London OTO that I was only a Minerval, he surprisingly replied that degrees are for those who need them, that some people have them naturally. Yes, I think I’ve been blessed with that; I’ve always been a natural for magic. Every fairy tale symbolizes what it’s really about: the hero’s journey and struggle through life to awaken his Sleeping Beauty, the beauty that lies asleep in his consciousness; and to conquer the obstacles to it with the Mighty Sword of Truth, his mind.

Kyler James is the author of the novel THE SECRET OF THE RED TRUCK, which made Dennis Cooper’s favorites list for 2014 and sold out repeatedly in New York City bookstores. A former actor and NYU graduate (studied with Stella Adler), Kyler started reading Tarot cards on film sets and has been a professional psychic counselor for thirty years, amazing people (and animals) with his talents. He has written columns and short stories for a number of magazines and is known for being “The Wizard of Washington Square” when the weather succumbs to his will. Kyler’s newly published novel, MERCURY’S CHOICE, about a genius of a painter, is currently available on Amazon. You can visit him at